I held my face held at the shower, enjoying the steady jet of water hitting my face, I felt as if I was relieved of all the weight from my shoulders. Listening to Little Wonders by Rob Thomas, I slowly packed my stuff to carry on my daily chores. The day starts on with clarity, I opened the windows, a jet of fresh air hit my face. I saw the sweeper cleaning the streets, the newspaper guy cycling so fast that I could hear his heart pumping from a distance and then I saw Raj sleeping, he had just moved into my apartment after being forced out of the apartment he was living with his friends. Raj was a guy with lots of emotional attachment with whomever he meets, which eventually lands him in the painful side. From what I observed, he is someone who tends to expect from his friends without realizing it. He finally ran into rough weather, his views, his expectations from his friends hit a rock made of selfishness and insensitive feelings. From the past 15 days, he had been listening to my philosophical advices and was drowned by it. Right now, I slowly getting drowned in my own thoughts, a sudden slap brought me back to reality, my close friends had come over to pick me up for college. Over the next 10 months, Raj and myself became good friends sharing most of the same philosophical thoughts, having lots of healthy discussions ranging over a variety of topics. I had him in my set of friends and together we were the “funny 6″! We gelled like no one could, we eventually moved to another apartment which could hold 5 more people. Things went well for the first few days and then he went berserk ! Most of my friends had a lot of hobbies and past times which went well with Raj and not with me. Years flew, vibes weren’t healthy. We had lots of the invisible hatred flowing among us mainly because of their hobbies and things didn’t work out well. It so happened that all were drawn to the past time by which everyone started pulling in their own directions. This team was falling apart, I had to do something, I started pushing them back to what they were ought to be doing to have the balance. This wasn’t working out, I was battling the fight all alone, a fight which was of least importance to me at this point of time. I had my fifth semester exams coming up and I had lots to study, I used to feel that I was going off track. By the end of the semester, I was tired, beaten in the battle of one versus an army of addicts. The results were bad, I had lost my concentration, my friends fared much better. How could they? I was jealous, had my anger in me like a pressurized can of coke. I had to talk to them, I told them what was happening, what was expected to be done but it never went right! I just couldn’t digest the fact that nothing was happening as I had seen it.They were wrong, why didn’t they see it? Its a fact! Why can’t they accept the rules of the game? Their response was clear and simple, they didn’t break the rules, in fact there were no rules. They simply lived their life.
A sudden wave of realization hit me, it hit me hard, it knocked me off for a second or two. I became I silent, my mind was calmer. I was Raj, whom I had met a few years back.
Posted on September 27, 2009
0